yes, my black background is finally working on safari. i didn't realize you have to do the html codes. so perhaps i wouldn't change it anymore.

i have stopped writing. not offcially, but close enough. writing to me is a passion and i wish i could carry on but heavy lectures tend to put you to sleep.

remember the numbness i used to feel? i guess in a way it is coming back again. i realize i cant' handle myself in front of huge group of people concerning my thoughts and expressions, and i can only do that on a one-to-one conversations or group of four. it's fustrating and infuritating to have to shout at the top of your lungs just to be heard. and it's tiring to here constant chatter at a loud volume.

i love my life though and i'm learning how to appreciate it more each day. there are times when you're stuck alone in isolation but i guess you get over it. i'm a person who need human contact all the time or else i would think of bizzare things which shouldn't even be there.

time is constant, but life isn't.
so it's one step two step, on a highway pine.